Let’s get real: Isn’t it annoying that God generally calls us out into the deep waters and it’s never in the places we feel strengths? Or it seems like He calls us out into the deep waters and we are like “hey I dunno how to swim bro.” He asks us to do the very things He knows we aren’t able to do. It’s so annoying. I struggle so much with public speaking, anxiety, isolation, etc. yet God has called me into this position of being around people, speaking weekly, and being responsible for things that I cannot REALLY change which causes anxiety. Do you feel this way?
I know Moses felt this way when God called him to go back to Egypt… (see Exodus 3-4) He tried every excuse: oh but how will they know for sure it’s from You, oh but I’m not a good speaker, ok seriously… not me man. Yet God was like…. well yeah you’re going. You’re going for sure. So Moses went. Then after everything sucked Moses even turned and complained because it looked like God wasn’t doing what He said He would. It was hard to see the whole painting from the brushes perspective. Especially when you’re being squished against the canvas and can only see the paint all over your head…
That’s the point of faith. Faith is believing when you don’t know what/how/why. It’s not believing based on the circumstance but based on the one who guided you there. Of course He calls us to do the things we are unable to do, otherwise we would be doing the things without Him. God calls us into a life of submission and ministry (parenting, work, etc.) and does so in places we must count on Him to provide. This is His ministry and He wants to take lead. Stop trying to be the leader. Let Him guide, and trust Him to provide.
However, be honest about it. It’s annoying, confusing, and baffling. Yet it’s also often refreshing, fulfilling, and completely beautiful. God uses broken vessels to hold the water of life, you are a living miracle. Yet our flesh is telling us we are unable, this wont work, and all these other lies… during the very moments we are doing exactly what He asks. We are being held by the potter, transporting water, and our flesh wants to point to the cracks and freaks out saying there’s no way the water will stay in here! (but it is). We need to be honest about this so that when other people feel defeated, terrified, and discouraged they don’t listen to their flesh but instead realize they are experiencing exactly what God wants. That feeling, it’s what the pot feels when it is carrying water and knows that there should be leaks through all of it’s cracks. We admit we are unable, but sit back and watch it be done. Living miracles.
Spend 1 minute thanking God, though filled with cracks, you can be used for the very purpose you are incapable of performing. Then spend 2-3 minutes and ask God to help you trust Him when the cracks seem insurmountable.
I’m leaky. Super leaky. Yet God somehow uses me to carry His refreshing, never-ending water. If He can use me (and all the people in Scripture) then He can use you. Look around for the opportunities and step out in faith towards them. Don’t wait for the ability, it may never seem to arrive (even while you’re functioning in it).